GUILTY

haihhh...my superduper uncool life recently mmg byk diancam masalah!!!*sigh*saper ckp hidop aku kewl???think twice,no, lebeyh larr babes!haishhh...im thinking of suicide!bhahaha...nope,aku over...^^ above all,metaphore is cool,ryte?haha(:

ok larr...back to the topic.i think,its not too late for me to wish

"hepyy teachers' day!!!"

hari guru tade kaitan dgn tajuk entri kali nih???saper ckp?!haha...tanggal 16 Mei 2009,aku dgn dengan semangatnyer pown drive black citra my mum tuhh...do i have the guts??daa~apparently,i do..haha!take note that im among those drifter,okay?so far tade accident lagik..so far,larrr...lol!so,first stop,santan!pick up wani hassan...then iena,(stuck situh kejap..)bhahaha...*sigh*,pastuh,kak tin and lastly,nuura...phewwww!what a journey!raser cam pusing satu perlis ouh!braper kali langgar trafic light merah???twice ker?might be more...yahhh!JPJ,sila tarek balek lesen akuh!bhahaha...

so,first ktorg headed town dlu...hari sabtu kan,even kangar akan jam like NY!so,aku decided untok park dkt bwh the store...,which i regreted as it turned up to be my nightmare!!!why?keep on reading,yahh!parking wasn't a problem at all...so,ktorg berpecah larr from there on...nak carik prezzy lar,cake larr...dh set nk jmpa 4.30pm...sbb kn grup aku carik kek kat garden tade..*sigh*so kmi trun kt keta lps pnt trun naek the store yg 'tggi' tuh...tggu pnya tggu...si iena ngan kak tin xsampai gak...so,ktorg decide nk tggu ats jewr cus byk gk org carik parking tym tuh!duhhh!(flashback)dummm!"weyhhh!kne aper weyhh??!"aku ngan wani usha blakang serious tade ape!OMG!"fynn!hang hit tyr honda depan,weyh!"huhhh?!maser tgk dpn bru aku prasan yg gler kne weyyy!raser mcm nk trun keta larikan diri jewh!seroiusly!but,dgr balek wani ckp tyr,aku cool sket...still trying smbl getaq giler tgn pegang stereng utk kluar dr situh...damn it!dah r ader keta tgh tggu nk msok parking tuhhh!pastu,aku cm ter-stop..."weyh,nk caner nih?larik ar!norhh?xper?""haah...jln je larr..."tnpa memikirkan betapa byk witnesses yg ader kt situh,dgn akak dkt ticket counter tgk aku cm aku bunoh org tuh,aku pown larikkkk!kire langgar larik arr!ishh...

ouh!keta dye takk terok cm pic ats eyh!just scrathed jew..JUST,ko ckp!!!tp bila pk balek,damn!honda tuhhh!my car?xterok sgt...calar gak,but not as bad as theirs!uihhh!sgt GUILTY!i feel it in my bone!!!bersalah kat pemilik keta tuh,satu hal,bersalah kat parents satu hal...!klo nk ikot intergriti mmg i should wait...but,tym tuh mmg cemassss to DEATH larrr!takot gler!my first experience ouh!so,tym pegi mah cegu rulah...mmg tade mood lansong.i try so damn hard untok pretend to be happy but just try put yourself in my situation!tension!!!susahhhh nk handle weyh!klu aku tggu,jenuh nk settle dgn owner tuh!plus,nk kne byr g!maner nk carik dwet weyyy!dah ar nk masok uitm nih,hbs dwet gler beli mcm2!....sial tol!life ouh life!nihh,aku dh lggr larik nihh...bertentangan giler dgn prinsip aku!aku taaa penah jadik irresponsible cmnih!vudusss...but,thinking of my parents,i ran away...my family bukan larr kaya!sgt kesian samer dorg...my fault!aku mmg taa gune!argghhhh!forgive me...seriously aku phobia nk drive weyyh!!!

aku takot...byk saksi yg nmpak my doing tuhh!FYI,ader cctv lagikkk!korg raser that car owner akan trace me down ke??!dye akn lodge a report kerr???aku tamaw tbe2 ader polis dtg rumah carik akuhhhh!aku tamaw masok jail!!!!aku tamaw!!!!!!!!car owner,have some symphaty on me...please...ignore it,please??i know,what im asking is a bit to much but...entahlah!!!aku giler tak sedap hati...what shud i do??!dkt parents pown blom btaw g...cmner!cmner!tp,lagik satu yg wat aku sedeyh,psl cegu mahzan...the main reason aku nk kua nih pown mmg nk pegi mah cegu...but,sbb lamer sgt stuck kt mah cegu ruslah...tak sempat nk lepak mah dye...sobs...sedeyh ouh!tym smpai dye cam majok..&&.dye siap ckp,"ouh...rmah cegu ruslah lamer laa ehh"cikgu!!!no...jgn ckp cmtuh...xkire!knaper aku syg cegu nih sgt??cus aku nk kawen ngan ank dye yg ensemhe's been more like a father to me!!!nnty nk jugak lepak mah cegu!!!

p/s:sorry iena,kak tin,wani,nuura sbb hang out this tym sgt tegang!i cant help myself!so sorry cegu mahzan!!!sempat pegi kejap je...serious tade niat... :'(