Living life like a boss!

I sucks at intro so, yep me not planning on any. But before that, do I need to remind you I've been away from writing(no not writing, I do writing all the time.hey, I'm one of those girls who still keep a diary,fyi).The term is, blogging.I've been away from blogging for quite a long time now,didn't I? So,this is me making a comeback after the long hiatus(it always sounded so cool this way) and hopefully, able to feed those hungry stalkers of mine?(well,what do you mean by if I had any?pfft).Too long for an intro but whatever, I'll be writing on what's happening on my life for the past me missing in action(MIA) and what is clouding up my mind recently.So, bare with me, what do you expect?I have to cover the three months entry into one post.Long is what you should be expecting!

Let's start with the third semester in my awesome and lively NOT law school of mine.

Ever heard of mak cik pak cik going over how hard law school is going to be?Well, booyah it's nothing but the truth. We law student can't seem to stop whining about why are we here taking law major, why there's no bloody fool who ask for our hand in marriage yet, or why do I have to be a law student at all.Ya know, those regretting whines that lead you to nowhere but some more whines? Here let me give you a closer look.

Due to SCLC's(the club that I join) programs, I've been quite a bee this semester. Most unforgettable moment is when we conducted a program at a middle school.and how do kiddos work with me?Not well.Everybody knows that.so why did I go?Suicide mission,obviously.But hey,for some reasons, I'm still kicking and there's no murder there(at least for now).Phewww.Point is, kiddos starting to acknowledge my existence and I'm closer to being all wifey type now.This is what I've been telling you about. Me,being a law student. Mental.

Can't believe how good they behave in photos.pfft

Kak long's car wash program.

Jyeah,she's the only one loving law.haha

Fast forward to final exam.All study week long, nescafe or white coffee or McD's brewed coffee had been my legal drugs which kept me awake. Most of us didn't sleep well enough since we have to learn a one semester subject all in two or if we're lucky enough 3 days.Yikes, I know. But when you're in university, that's pretty normal and now I have the thought that what's the point of going to class if I can learn everything in less than a week?You mad? I have this subject that I only attend not more than 5 classes for the whole semester and I'm dead worried about the result.Nahh,kidding. I'm pretty much satisfied that I actually manage to answer the paper. Of course no A is guaranteed but hey, I did pretty good there. and...not to forget my Moral and Ethics subject. I went to lectures, do one time presentation and in every class I rudely scrolling on Tumblr but when it comes to final exam, it surprised me that I'm able to memorize hadith like, we're talking real hadith here,people!So I guess, I deserve some tabik or something?HAHA. Fine,fine,sorry. I didn't meant to brag just joking and obviously it ain't funny but truth be told, please please I just need to pass the papers and at least maintain the 3 pointer. Mann,law is pain in the ass. You, who plans on taking this path,save yourself!

My classmates,despite some of the immature sheeps(just that one sheep) and annoying people they are the best.Like seriously seriously the best.

the ugly truth of me not fitting in law.period

I just can't get over A'a's boobies cuppies :D

Oh oh,did I mention I went to the palace?No?Well, here goes

I will never understand the rich.purr

Then the Revive,obesity thingy~

Not winning in fact, disqualified instead but hella proud.Aumm!

Well,it's a matter of how you looks at thing,right? :)

Moving on.This sem,I've got a new house(as a tenant,of course). Plus some new coolest hommies ever! So, since Kak Long and Shella is from Sarawak, we thought it'd be great to throw a house warming party and serve laksa sarawak. It went well, I guess?The foods yums yums yums.If I were a boy,I wanna marry my hommies.

Why do I have to look brilliantly stupid in this photo?

I love this photo simply cuz I look like a thug.problem?

So,we had this crazy idea back then.Ya know, Genting.

Them all.Izza,Sherry,Shel and kak long.

*clap clap*

Not going to put all up.You have my facebook for that.What else eh?OH. As I goes along, I got to know new people. Great people in fact.

and sticking with the old flames.the best ever.

and so.the end.lol, you know I'm kidding,right?It's just it's maghrib and I'm hungry. So,I'm lazy now. too lazy to think.So,there you have it. The summary version of what happened during my MIA. Dah,puas catch up? ADIOS la viosa,my amore!(I don't know what the hell does that mean.whatever)

Living life like a lao sai!(go ahead google it dumbass)

Chin up,beautiful souls :)

Eversince I can remember, a lot of people has called me fat. Too many that I've lost count. and that doesn't exclude some close friends of mine. Yes, that makes me sad and NO I'm not gonna smack them on the head. 

I don't think that will solve their mental issues.

YOU, who constantly calling me fat, this is me being FAT.

and this is the actual me.

I might not have a skinny model-like figure or cheek bone,

but a reasonable man would know the different.

but then of course, retarded mean hearted people wouldn't get it.

It's alright :)

 For those people who had been called fat,ugly and million other horrible names by your own friends or strangers or whoever, stop being sad. Don't let those people affect your life. Instead,be glad because you, the most horrible person to their eyes never do most horrible things like them. Be proud because we don't need to use mean words to bring people down just to feel better about ourselves. Smile and chin up because our flaws are what make us different.

Unfriend.

I miss a friendship I had with multiple someone but I donʻt think it can ever be how it used to. This is probably not the best solution but it's all I can think of. I'm trying not to blame it all on you people, maybe it was me. Maybe I am the bad friend and maybe I'm the one who had change. But hey, whatever. I'm tired of being the friend who does everything for other people, but when I need you, you're not there for me. I guess, I just care too much for people who don't care at all about me. 

You've finally got a boyfriend,fine.I'm jealous yes, but I'm happy though for you. I try not to go around you too much saying, 'hey wanna hang?' or texting you all days,nights,weekend just trying to find a shoulder to cry to,no I don't. I hate to be that kind of friend who suffocates and clingy. People don't like that,I know. But, once in a while, when I texted you, call or anything I would expect a little more nicer respond than hours of time taken for a reply and your snob I-got-a-boy-and-you-don't-so-get-lost-attitude, old friend. Personally for me, a reply text messages really means a lot to me. Because, if I don't get one back from you, I thought you're dead.

And when I got your back,I kind of imagine the scene in X-men Origin where wolverine and his bro were doing back to back. You know, I got yours, you got mine? My bad, I watch movies too much. Hence, I tend to take life seriously. When, something is going my way instead of yours, if you could see the expression you had, I swear you'd go "Mother of..Did I look like this all day?" Rewind.That time what did I do? Did I do hula in front of you saying, 'bitch, why serious?' and left? or did I just ignore you and said, 'fuck it'. I had this thing in me, hopelessly faithful. That, I would like to change. Because, now when I'm on a windy road, you just laugh on my sadness and ignore. So much for a friend.

and, when a friend trying to pick a fight with  me just because of a lame, duniawi kpop group who depends on looks,have zero abs, and stereotyping my course like a complete asshole,

'nigga, you can kiss my ass'.

It hurts me to write these bad things,that is why unfriend is the ultimate option. No worries, I will forever make you vague and anon. I love you, and having you as friends is beyond amazing, but at the moment, you're being the pain in my ass. When you've finally brokenhearted, got stab in the back or old enough to be called mature, you know where to find me,ya.

Baru dua langkah.

Today, the last day of class for this current semester.
Semester two.Hence the dua langkah.
get it? get it?

We had class party,and I quite like it.Well yeah,to even have a post about it.
Sorry blog,I've been neglecting you eversince tumblr :(
I can't help it.
I'm getting tired of people questioning why the hell that I'm so addicted to it and I seriously swear feels like axing them. Well of course since it's illegal.
and because they haven't been there yet and they are not the same with us tumblrians.
Ahh,those facebookers(didn't it rhymes with hookers?LOL)~


Anyway,final is on the next week.I feels like killing myself even when writing this.GOD,this sem was tough. Why yes,everything was. The learning, the classes, the extra activities which people can't get over with only to make their resume looks great enough, the fakers, the dramas, the friends and their bullshits, the boyfriend which I never happen to get yet any,the angst and the fact that I'm still breathing now.

So here's the picture,after scoring 19 out of 40 from a contract test.On my defence, I don't revise the night before,so...jyeahhh.

Don't ask me stupid question like why I had it censored or anything.

Yes,I probably hate that person and don't want it to spoil the memory.

You don't need to guess whoever that person is,

because later you guys will go around spread things,nasty one about me doing this.

It's my blog,it's my right,it's my feeling,alright?

Do not tell me that it was not nice and everything to hate,

because when people do that, I feel like slapping them hard.

You might think you're a saint,but I ain't.

Wow,I really am something. If you're asking me whether you should pursue law or not, I'd say BACK OFF, naive! It just part 2 but I'm feeling like I've graduated in seven different degrees already. That only if you know what I mean~ btw, I had improve on my slutty pose!

p.s. desperately needs to start bulimic again.

She's the type of girl

She is the type of girl you see laughing all the time, she is the type of girl everyone turn for an advice to, she is the type of girl who always let her two friends to walk in front and walk alone behind them whenever there's a narrow lane, she is the type of girl who always be the second guess, she is the type of girl who loves making her friends laugh and happy, she is the type of girl who smiles bitterly when her friends call her fat and ugly, she is the type of girl who laugh at the jokes which offend her, she is the type of girl who seems to be okay when people jokes about the thing that she has been insecure of, she is the type of girl who would rather push herself in front of the other, she is the type of girl who is not that significant, she is the type of girl that boys would never find attractive, she is the type of girl who looks good in the pictures, she is the type of girl who think she is strong, she is the type of girl who blogs about what's actually happen, she is the type of girl who hides,

SHE IS THE TYPE OF GIRL I AM.

Sometimes, I distance myself from people because I can either feel them forgetting me or not wanting me anymore. If they notice, I know I meant something but if not, I know where I stand. Though the results are always the same, I find myself more than a billion times on a position to be let down for.

and to those people who only realize that I exist when you need me,

FUCK YOU.

I'm not being selfish,

it just,

before when I was there for you,

I thought you would be here for me too.

I was wrong.

This is on my desktop background. 

Just to remind me every day that I don't breathe to server others. 

That if I live on trying to please everyone, I ought not to call it mine.

Friendship is like a glass of water.

Aku dah penat cakap yang aku lelah sungguh dengan perangai manusia.

sick and tired.

and sebab aku juga sama manusia

,aku pun tak terlepas buat perangai taik.

Betul lah orang cakap,semakin banyak kita belajar,semakin banyak ilmu yang kita tak tahu.So does friendship. Semakin ramai kawan kau ada, semakin sikit kawan yang sebenarnya ada.Well,that if you know what i mean lah~

One type yang paling famous and bersepah-sepah sekarang ni is the type yang,

"Oh hi! I only exist when you need something"

Selapuk mana pun idiom, 'a friend in need is a friend indeed', sampai bila bila kita boleh apply. I'm sick and soon to be immuned kot by friends yang kalau ada masalah sikit,kalau takde kawan lain or something datang menjerit-jerit 'Fyynnnnn!'. Masa tu aku lah kawan baik,akulah tempat mengadu. and then,tak lama lepas tu,when the wheel turns upside down, bila dia dah comfortable,ada teman lain, kau ingat nak ke,hingin ke dia nak pandang muka ketat aku ni?Haiiii,lalu sebelah pun tak perasan bhai~

#2 This type of friend yang pentingkan reputasi dia kat mata lelaki.

IDK why tak pernah orang ever bring up issue ni.Maybe sebab sangkut sensitivity kot?Ha...ni dia Fynn si mulot capoi nak habaq p.Dah korang semua anggap aku ni tak bermaruah sangat,kan?

Reminisce balik,pernah tak kalau korang ada problem dengan boys,especially kalau boys yang famous. Ada kawan baik kau tu nak backing kau ke? Kalau tak dia suruh kau mengalah, dia diam je. Dengan anggapan,malas nak campur, nanti networking dia dengan guys tak smooth. Those girls yang depan lelaki bapak lah angel,sengih bak perempuan melayu terakhir,orang tu suruh tolong buat assignment pun tak kisah.Pergghhh.Hebat lah kau,lelaki!

#3 The friend who beat your ass without reason.

and this is jyeahhhh, P-R-E-C-I-O-U-S.LOL,okay I'm just fooling around,I'm not this pervert usually.Well,just to ease the tense.Tak perlu nak makan dalam sangatlah, kalau kau tak buat tak perlu sakit hati,kan?

and banyak lagi type tipikal kawan ni sebenarnya,and unfortunately I can't think of and tak dapat lah nak increase amount of haters lagi dah.That is why, ever since 17, I never believe in this thing you people go around assuming as if it was pure friendship. Because,at the end of the day, haha, you know what happen.

For those who happen to have friends who never left your side,always back you up, cheer you up, doesn't look down on you and talk behind your back, I fucking envy you.