I need a gun! (fullstop)

*sigh*

i really have to let it out,

but i just don't know how...

it was so simple yet too complicated,

it makes me happy but at the same time tears me apart,

i was in the dark,

assuming that i have the light in my hand,

but then,

when i look around it was just BLACK.

i saw the door,

thought that i might have the key,

but then,

my pockets are empty!

from behind, i heard voices,

when i turned around,

i am still alone.

  then i walk along,

said i'm terrified,

but i'm not leaving,

deep under,i knew i should pull the trigger.

as my life flashes before my eyes,

i'm wondering will i ever see another sunrise?

and all i got is a scary thought.

"Close your eyes,sometimes it helps"

p/s : one fact about suicide is that,it took away life but never the pain.(credits>roullete russian)