Too-went-tee

Bang! It's 2011 and I'm perfectly twenty.Gahhh~ Just lose the number '1' in front of my age and it kind of making me sick. Dua puluh tahun hidup, what was it all about? I don't know? I might say tons but I also feels like telling you, none. Get it? Get it? Alrightyyy, obviously I'm having yet another crisis. Do you know, that crisis when you hit certain age in your life that you feels things is not as what it used to be? When you look in the mirror and think your butt looks completely hideous? So, yes that kind of crisis is totally raining rocks all over my brain. Exclamation mark.

Apa guna blog,kalau tak tulis,kan?So ayuh, countdown!

#1- Everyone else seems so young!

It's a serious aweful to walk around and feels like as if I'm a grannie!!! For crying out loud, I'm 2 freaking ty! or 20,jyeahhh. But why does suddenly every waiters, cashiers,etc start calling me 'kakak'?? But that's quite tolerable though, but when things seems like what worst could happen, then there are underage boys.

 Note this, I AM SO EFFING MAD THAT WHENEVER I HAD MY EYES ON SOME CUTE GUYS,THEY TURN OUT TO BE LIKE FEW YEARS YOUNGER THAN ME!!! Oh yes, I'm so not going to get married or even afford a bf.Thank you, thank you so much. Adult sucks much.

#2- I came to know how real friendship works.


I learned a lot about friendships. I lost people that were once my best friends. I lost old friendships that I thought would last beyond high school. People I once trusted ended up showing me the opposite. Although I lost those people, I also built more valuable relationships with the people who stayed. I kept the friends that really mattered. I gained stronger friendships with people who were there for me. I realized that besides family, I only have a few people I can truly rely on, but that's okay. Having a huge group of friends isn't that great when most can care less about you. In the end, having a few valuable friendships with people who really have your back is always worth so much more.

#3- Being a public figure is so disgustingly low!

Why,yes indeed! I used to think it would be great if one day I get to be famous that I own millions of fans worldwide and everything.I mean,how cool is that? But recently, when having this shitty copycat-girl who is so damn awfully clingy and rude and started to use me as a sample in very much everything especially style and clothing, I feels like I'm about to go insane that I think I might poop in her hand! OHMYGAWD. I mean, do you really have no sense of style at all that you really have to copy my outfits and attire or do you really think I'm that dumb not to notice your shameless doing? Hey, for the record, those clothes looks better on me. In your face,sunshine!

#4- Boyfriend,boyfriend and the list goes on~

Mum keeps on bugging me with this heavy predicament and I'm not liking it. Yes, I do have like banyak lagi friends all around me who is still single but when the pressure is up, with this kind of face and figure, I'm actually starting to accept the fact that i would die single,no love at all. As pathetic as it may sound to you who read, try put on my shoes.I'm putting white flags paint all over my face now.

Oh,how I wish I'm a unicorn.or a gummy bear. yeah,that will do.

p.s. :guys, if you came across this post or any in my blog,well do me a favor. Leave a comment or at least like it or something.It feels weird having 200+ followers and didn't get any.You know what I mean? It won't hurt your pride or anything,but I'll sure thank you in advance :)

Cupcakes untuk 2017.

"Ai dah pandai buat cuppies la you"

*senyum gedik*

*kedip kedip*

"dengan coleslaw pun!Meaning,dah ada dessert dan appetizer untuk kita nanti :)"

Untuk recipe and how to,kelik read more,okai?

Syndrome nak kahwin~

ini tak tipu,okay.

salah video ni lah!

7tahun lagi,

S A B A R ,

 Fynn!

Ahoy, orang kampung!Aku ada berita gembira ni!

[Sila kelik untuk tumbesaran gambar]

Alhamdulillah, syukur kepada tuhan, after all these heart-wrenching incidents, finally, here's the end. Which mean, suatu permulaan yang baru bagi aku :)

Well, i didn't get UKM, sebab masalah sana-sini, so there goes my Syariah study. Mungkin Tuhan nak aku handle kes civil saja,kot?Who knows?HAHA.Okayyy, daftar 2 July, which is in a couple of days! Barang apa tak beli lagi, thankgod x-ray tak perlu!

And yes of course, juta juta terima kasih kepada kawan-kawan and those yang secara lansung or tak lansung yang tak jemu encouraging me and for believing me too much!

One last favor,guys? Doakan aku berjaya habiskan degree ini dengan super duper cemerlang! And lastly, semoga aku dapat cope dengan top scorers di UiTM sana.AMIN.

Oh my, aku sangat lega dapat sampaikan berita ni pada my parents.

Hilang satu beban =_='

Oh,boy!Oh boy! i have mixed feelings about this.

One more thing, pssssstt!

Tak perasan ke? Blog I dah transform,YOU!HAHAHA...

Changed for good,i'll say :)

Cantik tak? Okay tak? or burok?

Let me know please........

Above all, selamat tinggal tears day!Welcome happy day!

So,sebab aku super happy and bersyukur, next post aku akan ajar cara nak lawakan FACEBOOK anda!

nak tak?nak tak?

contoh 1

contoh 2

contoh 3

 yes, aku addicted dengan header baru,so jadi la kau background facebook aku!wakawaka!

Anyway,make sure anda semua ada Google Chrome,okay!

Not so good news.

Mari mari, dengar ini cerita!

Poyo weh...

Ok, mostly dah tahu condition aku yang tak berapa nak senta these passing days. Sebab kejadian lahanat tuh. And, of course aku tak terkejut lansung when it turn out this way. Agak pathetic and totally predictable. Dah,dah. Stop kutuk,already.Nanti tak pasal aku ada fan page free kat FB.

Okay,here it goes.

UiTM akan serap masuk 16 people.Before this i thought all together 20 orang yang kena,idk what happen. Itupun doesn't necessarily including me. 

My heart says: Terima kasih saja lah labu!

My head says: please let me be among those 16~

Stupid fynn!

Thanks to Hawa for this infos. So, by next week baru dapat tahu whether i will make it or tak. So,marilah tunggu beramai-ramai!

My plan?

I thought if dapat masuk UiTM, i shall go and wait sampai keputusan rayuan UPU is out. and if i get lucky, by any chance of course, i wouldn't hesitate untuk melarikan diri ke UKM. UNLESS, the second intake session is differ from the first.faham tak?Nevermind. tak penting .So,keep our fingers crossed yah~

Now, my hommey is in complete chaos. Mum and Dad bising pasal how it is expected and keeps on telling me to redha,redha and redha. Unfortunately, i am not that person of "okay,i accept". Nahhh.I shall berusaha mati-matian sampai i get what i deserved. i always get what i want. It will be just a matter of time and how.

You wait~

17 July 2017,be there!

17/07/17

wondering what's with the date?

got it?
yessss,my superduper FUTURE wedding ♥

ahaha!i know,lepas ni confirm kena bahan dengan budak kelas aku pasal nih, but nevermind...
dah memang tersangat kering idea untuk blogging!
so,teringat pasal planning aku ni,and i think it will be great if i could share it with u guys!
haha...how's that?*winks

shall we start with the jewellerIES? *grin

asal orang kahwin kan,sure pakai cincin,cincin,cincin...tak pon, gelang,right?
therefore,i want some changes! i demand for a necklace!
white gold with some diamonds on it will make it (;
p/s: im allergic to EMAS,white,xpe...lalalala

ouh,but that doesn't mean that rings are crossed out,okay?

which one is better,ay?

♥ u laa,my hubby to be!*winks


and the dress???

at first,i thought this will do,

but then,FYNN,ko orang Islam ke tak nih!!!
haila...haila...
so,i came out with these,instead ;

lawakan....
uhhh...rasa macam nak kahwin besok je!
purple untuk wedding at mine and gold at his!
SIMPLE.
2 is more than enough (:
i don't care,nanti, i nak exactly macam nih!
kalau tak,tak nak kahwin...hahaha

and,of course,
save the best for the last!
my pelamins....

how was it?

nice,huhhh?

i bet i did give some of u the feeling of early planning too,kan?*winks

not that aku gatai tak sabaq nak kahwin,its just i love to plan,

and i like everything's well organised~

and,,,otak aku memang selalu fikir jauh ke depan.

lalalala~

2017

by the time,i dah 27...

InsyaAllah dah settle chambering dah...

so,keeps your fingers crossed,

lepas  ni, tak payah susah buat kad dah,

repost saje!HAHA

*tolong amin kan...

I've learnt my lessons,YOU?

Anyway,hey!mostly,i've seen lots of bloggers suda mule buat conclusion of their first sem n etc.well,mine?it's gonna have to wait.i'll write after the final.well,sure its gonna be LONG!haha.ok,lets move on~

the truth is,i've been thinking lately of what im going to write.should i continuously write spiteful words of the unsatisfied heart of mine or should i bare with it.i've been thinking also,will things gonna keeps getting better.or worst?idk.its hard for me to even think about it.and,like i said.no one will even care if im in such a misery.prove= everyone starting to avoid me these recent days.but,thats ok.i know that'll happen.so,now im better.laughing and pretending all those problems had solves,they're around.ONCE AGAIN.for what,idk.well,its not important anyways.

thats one thing.another thing is that,people keep telling me write short.what the heck???i didn't even pay rents to own this site.instead its free and its totally mine.suka hati laa aku maw tulis panjang ka,pendek ka.well, yes.its bored.so,why read?ouh!maybe for u to annoy me and constantly messing with my life?do what ever u want.i-will-not-give-

a-damn!maybe i got few followers not like some of my friends who got plenty.followers who keep

give out comments and so ever.true,but again,come on!this is not a junk or a cheap blog yang

asyik nak puji-pujian je(im so not pointing at any blogger whom i know.).i write to

express.well,that is me.u got problem with that?

haha.u can lie to me.i know,those people read my blog.same goes to u.prove?habes,yg out of a sudden kwn2 yg aku lamer xkontek pon tetibe tawu jeh sumer psl recent life aku,cmne?

yg everytime i post new entries,there will be phone call or mesages asking for details...when i ask,how did u find out???"aku bace blog hang."see?

n,about my so called agony.at first,i thought i wil keep on smpan dendam and treat them justifyly equal.haha,apekah?then i go on thinking.i should not fight fire with fire.well,they will forget us when they are happy.but when they're sad,they'll come back to

u.so,takpe lah kawan-kawan,up to u.im a sincere friend.i don't love hoping for something in return.i don't care for u just for u to notice me.and,i dont pat u on ur back for u to remember me.im just an ordinary friend who is hoping to make real friends.so,let it be lah.if i were to be the kind of friend who u'll be needing in times of need,let it be.maybe its the best for me.

apepun,thanx sbb ajr aku jadi tabah :)

and,to my besties of Syed Putra.i miss all u.aku syg korg.i miss living with u guys.frankly,korg lah kwn plg nobel penah aku jumpe.kat sinih,baru aku atwu erti persahabatn yg sebanar.sorry if i ever take u guys fer granted.hopefuly aku dpt get out og this uitm asap n be with u guys di UIA or UKM or UM nnt ;p

p/s : kawan sytra,aku sgt sayanggg korg :)

As If You Would Care...

I know perfectly that u won't.ecspecially when i am nobody but someone u happened to know through this lame blog.so?what made me write this?noone will give a damn.idk.maybe i like the feeling of thinking that someone,somewhere,somehow will read this and wouls understand and make the day for me.which i perfectly know that is so IMPOSSIBLE.well,i live in fantasy world,and i don't care about what might happen cus i always live in the hope that good thing will happen.so,no wonder i gets depressed most of the time.

So,nursyafinamunirah(i hate it when i have to expose my real name in order to make it sound that way!)...what is wrong,this time?EVERYTHING!its hard to tell u what is wrong when nothing seems right.no,u dont understand.u never did.u don't know how was it like to keep on hoping when u know what will happen next.nope,i won't apologize for being too open or for posting such an annoying post.i won't!this is me.sometimes.yes,u can tell that im still hoping for someone to care about what i'm going through but,i can't stop lying to myself.

"Relax lar,fynn.kenape emo sgt nih?"HAHA.told ya,u will never understand.not when u are not the one who keep on being in the wrong place all the time.the one who tend to make the wrong decisions in her life,the one who keep telling herself that everything will be ok and eventually proven wrong.u just don't know...truth be told,i hate to be me!i hate to stuck here,in this uitm.maybe i should go for the maktab offer back then.(i said it all,there u go~)i just wanna end this foundation programme ASAP and get the hell outta here.one more sem to go!

Fynn,every cloud has a silver lining.em,can i laugh?i don't think so.i don't think the situation here will be better.ouh,yes.if u were to say your life here is blissful or whatever,u can stop telling me that.i'm the only one who hate it here.yes,i know.folks,if ur intention is to tell me that im the black sheep and the weird one,CONGRATULATION!u did it!even the first sem is about to end,i don't think im able to fit in here.and i will never will.i never really feel like the real me when i'm here.i'm tired!TIRED!tired of faking a smile.tired of being nice and tired of being unheard.and,you are talking about justice,huh?equality among all...'naff with that.what i know is that, im surrounded by people whom i only knew them by the names.roomates?they are nice.but as u might knew,i never really have a good flow with any of mine for my entire life.its the truth.classmate?they are fun,but only in the fun time.not that im saying they are selfish or anything like that.its just,i don't feel like i can have them when im in this misery.no,i dont.i just dont feel the togetherness.yeah,sure.but not all.thanks to some of my fellow classmates who lately brighten up my days.and seriously,thank u for allow me to show the genuie smile which i've hide for such a long time.

so,please?when can i leave?i just need to find a place where i can be myself AGAIN.God,only Him know how much i miss Wanie(sape nak pgl aku miaww lagi?),Nuura(u r my shoulder!thanx),Azzah(tlg jerit org utk aku,champ..),Sue(no one wud ever see me thru lyk u did!),Rehan(my fav pelangi ;p),Azni(budak yg suker blush n memahami),geng ur(aku maw lepak dorm korg lg!!!)...as if u would care,right?haha

p/s: i really hate it here.

I'm just a girl...

booom...kapppa...booom!!!

MERDEKA!!!

yeah,whatever. so,today aku kua pegi JJ(bkt raja).yup,LAME.mls ar maw jln jaoh smpai sunway.hihik...well,i had a long day...a very fun long day...i got pleanty to tell but,i'm damn penat.so, hey, why not i let the pictures do the talking???cool~ <3

well,this is my bukapuasa menu of the day :) i had that nuw shrimp sticks.DE-LI-CIOUS!

but,i wish i can have this damn drink *_*

ouh, i met this old chap.he looks SAD.God,bless him.

i got this black twin (woohooot!) for raya and class :) -headed mawar-

then,there is a knock on the door.ader akak jual brg seludop!! voilla~

she's an make-up artist!hehe...guess what?we got free grooming lesson!aww~

i bought this HUGO perfume for just rm25!i know!haha.it's for my DAD.hee...hope he'll love it and stop using POLO.lol!bad ME~i spent my last ringgit on this,today.

oh!oh!wait for my new look! XD

the result-haha.a big NO WAY!this is me,at night.well,the cullens are part of my family :)

meet LIL FYNN.heee..she's the keychain for my nuw pendrive!gosh..she smell like a BREAD!like seriously!plus,she's SOFT~~~

and...i spent up to 400??haaa...maybe?IDK..*guilt*

ok,lets do something fun.to those who have met me these passing days,cant u spot something new bout me?think...think...well,its not that hard!here's the answer :

well,skip the ring part.its just my fantasy.lol.its gone already.cincin murah!sobs...no one maw kasik i cincin silver..(totally allergic to GOLD) urghhh...back to the gemok part.i HATE the girl in the pic.she is sooo FAT!damn gemok dan chubby.lipo!lipo!geeeezzz...STUPIDOS.i cant help myself from hating this fat-ass.alaaa...tell me u hate her too!

p/s: one thing i forgot to put in the last pic.the word GEEK.

Leaving so soon...

duhh!it's wednesday already!im heading back to shah alam this morning.EXACTLY at 9!haha...wtf,huhh?you tell me.huhhh.what a FUSS!and dont ask me why am i still not sleeping.tommorow,i had to go on the bus early in the day and my journey will take about 8hours,what do you think i can do except for sleeping???get the idea already?good.uhhh...thinking of BTN make me sick!i don't wanna go there.most people said it was great.yeah,right.but,never for me.for all my life,i haven't been into any of the camp which i got a great group.indeed,everyone turns out to have lots of fun but me.anyway,still looking forward to it.this might turns out well.*sigh* so,terengganu,here i come!
this hols was a bit frustrating cus i didn't have the chance to hang out with my girls,i mean,4days in perlis just doesn't seems enough.also,im wondering why doesn't friends from matriculation beep me or something.i know they are all here and having such a great TWO weeks of hols...did they forget me already?ouh!of course,they've met new friends..haha!life.*sigh*and the news about a friend of mine who got involved in accident do a bit much bother me.takziah to her family.FYI,her father died.al-fatihah.well,God can take life whenever he wants.take note!so,forgive me if i've done wrong :)

lagi?bla...bla...bla...n yess,FINALLY!elaun dah masok!yeyyy!(there u go,some FAKE excitement)rm1000,doesn't sound enough,huhh?u tell me.what else should i write?duhhh!im blank.ok lah,until i get my lappy back,n back from that tempting camping,take care.

I'm HOME!!!

shaha.i know,some of you don't like to hear that,but face it!last night(8p.m. saturday) i finally reached home.pheww...what a journey!yah,finally i decided not to take the train and burned the ticket though.i didn't go with them.i stay at my Pak Uda's house at seremban for one night.i took the bus.huhhh.i hate bus!it makes me dizzy.& want to puke!i don't know how's the BTN trip is going to deal with me.hush.tell nobody or else they don't want to seat with me,later!haha.so,to come back to the story,i thought a night stand at my uncle's house would mean bad luck.why?dont you know?he got like,i don't know...three KIDS!!!i mean,hell im going to die.but,thinking that otherwise i have to go on a train with a bunch of people that i dislike,i rather meeting the kiddos ;p(didn't i tell u that im allergic to them???u dont dare put them near me!)

so,here it come.Pak Uda told me that he's going to pick me up at 11am and as i expected,there you go,11am SHARP,he was waiting for me in front of Mawar's little gate.heee.he's a leftenan in airforce,btw.so,i follow him to INTAN.pick some of his buddies.then off to seremban.ouh,i skipped the part which i have to sit and have a drink with a bunch of old and RICH granpas,yahh,it was BORING!but i did some eye-flirting with some(for future sake).haha!dirty me.i did get this datuk to treat me juice(real one,ok!)!*winks*then,i pegi melawat tempat baju batek uitm dibuat,ok!hahaha.x excited pon,larhh!

sampai depan rumah uda,(omg!lamer xpost dlm BM :))i saw...CHILDREN.deadliest challenge for me!ouh,God,help me to cope...then,amazingly,god did hear my prayer.nahhh.he didn't take away the children but they were actually acting NICE to me.unlike other kiddos!im in a total shock!my favourite is Syafiq(why must this name?)he was soooo sweeet!

syafiq : akak fyna,jom ar pegi mall.

me : no larhhh,akak penat.nak titow,dear.

syafiq : akak tanak pegi,syafiq pon tanak pegi lah.ibu!syafiq tanak pegi,nk teman akak fyna.

me : syafiq pegi larrr,rugi ouh!

syafiq : syafiq nak teman akak fina.syafiq pon ngantok.nak titow jugak.

awww!cm tak cayer i can finally manje2 dgn budak.i mean,seriously,B-U-D-A-K! ;p here's the pic.Syafiq is in red.the other is Syauqat.little bro :)

overall,my stay was a total blast except for the fact that i left my lappy there.damn!journey in the bus?SUCKS.i dont want to talk about it AT ALL.im lucky that i didnt puke on anyone else.or i'll get kick out of the bus.now that i'm home,i feel like im back into my palace once again.still haven't have time for hanging out with friends.some have had me booked.2 dates in line.hahaha!dgn scandal,yes.but,no way a bf-to-be.mum?she keeps stuff-ing me with her cooks.which is very fine as i had suffered from a great hunger in shah alam.dad?i don't know where,but he seems to have every single fruits of my favourites all over the house.from rambutans to tembikaiii!sisters?so far,they didn't do much harms to me.and,i got packs of chocolates from langkaweee^^

plus,they also subscribe some new channel for me!hey yeyyy!but,still the renovation in my room haven't yet finish.im a bit dissapointed but,its okay larhhh.everything is good enough.feels good to be home...

IPGM..its HEAVY!

Im torn between two...damn!!!oh my godness...today,26 June 2009,i found out that result of institut perguruan malaysia is out!!!Syu is the one who told me about this.They have checked it through sms.Two of my classmate made it.its Don and Syu.Obviously,they are excited about the offer.i can see from their face how happy they were.Me?I did try to check it.but,twice failed application make me stop trying.Everyone is like wanting to know whether or not i got it too.Yeah,hard to admit but maybe they secretly wishes for me to go?lol...its inner voice,ok.somehow...at my room,i checked it once again,and there you go....

"RM0.20 MOE: TAHNIAH!ANDA BERJAYA.91011909****.Kursus:S012R0E0MP di IPGM KAMPUS PEND TEKNIK.Info lanjut layari http://www.moe.gov.my/"

Sh*t!its the first word to come out of my mouth.I did ask for God not to grant me the application.If im damn not interested why am i attending the interview?im blocking other oppurtunities,what?!huhhh...its my mum.She's the one who force me to go for it.As to satiesfied her,and for the sake of obeying...i agree..i only did the preparation last minute!i did the research on the night of the interview,i submitted an INCOMPLETE forms,i didn't gave my picture accordingly,i even submit certificates w/o my name on it!plus,i also failed to answer Q about cabinet in personal interview!what the heck were they thinking??!iam not a qualified TEACHER to be!!!

i know,by the time im publishing all these to the public,lots will say that im not grateful as i should be...I should have aware of the fact that thousand had applied but only few had succeed..how am i going to say that I COMPLETELY understand of the situation!its just,try being in my shoe,then only you'll shut up.its a matter of passion and future..which should i choose???my passion,eager,interest and the rest of it lies here,in law...but,a total promises future awaits in IPGM...i have of the interest on being a teacher...yet,im still considering the risk of studying law...there is not a single promise of end up being a lawyer.also,there is no guaranty of not commiting sins...plus,the unscholarship study in degree...everything compared to ipgm's offer is too much to handle.as in ipgm i will get allowance every single months!job is also secured...

these are among advices yg i dpt...

WHAT WILL BE MY CHOICE???!

hurmmm...still hoping for clues.im going to perform the istikharah tonight.hopefully it will work.i sygg sgt nak tinggal my friends here.they are all sweet and caring..i started to love them but now it seems like i have to go.my roommates...classmates...i LOVE u guys!!!i don't want to leave...but..maybe its still early to decide.yah.hopefully.am i asking too much for hoping the same incident as USM interfere to happen again this time? T_T

"Ya Allah, saya memohonkan pilihan menurut pengetahuanMu dan memohonkan penetapan dengan kesuasaanMu juga saya memohonkan kurniaMu yang besar, sebab sesungguhnya Engkaulah yang Maha Mengetahui dan saya tidak mengetahui apa-apa. Engkau Maha Mengetahui segala yang ghaib. Ya Allah, jikalau di dalam ilmuMu bahawa urusan saya ini........baik untukku dalam agamaku, kehidupanku serta akibat urusanku, maka takdirkanlah untukku dan mudahkanlah serta berikanlah berkah kepadaku di dalamnya. Sebaliknya jikala di dalam ilmumu bahawa urusan ini buruk untukku, dalam agamaku, kehidupan serta akibat urusanku, maka jauhkanlah hal itu daripadaku dan jauhkanlah aku daripadanya serta takdirkanlah untukku yang baik-baik saja dimana saja adanya, kemudian puaskanlah hatiku dengan takdirMu itu."

p/s:help me to decide...

as life goes on...

a week and few more days to go

(to finally leave for shah alam)...

counting days

and i wasn't that excited

as i shoud be!haha...

May god bless me