Pergi joli.

Last week,mostly budak sekolah aku kecah pasal gathering girls ONLY.Lepas ni berkejar lah paparazzi nak sergah blog aku ni.

Oh,hai korang!

At first memang aku gedik nak join tapi bila aku dapat hidu bahawasanya, si Pandi ni nak join,aku back off. Lepas tu ada lah,orang sana sini tanya.Yang tak pernah concern pun tiba tiba teringat kewujudan aku.Impressive.Bekas BFF pun text aku for confirmation.Mungkin mendambakan citra aku,agaknya.HAHA.

So,nah aku kasi reasons kenapa aku tak hingin berkehendak untuk join ;

1. Si Pandi - aku tetap rasa perempuan biatch yg memilih kawan based on looks and harta is murahan.
2. Still,si pandi.
3. Mostly BFFs tetap aku tak join pun.
4. Aku suruh buat awal,gedik nak postpone.
5. Fulus takdak.Hampa pakai rm 10,hangus aku nyahhh~
6. Afterall,tujuan gathering utk jumpa balik kawan kawan lama.Bagi aku,most of yang attending, dulu masa sekolah,korang even know my name,tak?
7. Aku dapat sense unsur selfish di sebalik tom yam. (Aku suka tomyam ayam lah!)
8. Aku rasa better untuk plan event lain.

So I did.Dalam masa less than a week,tanpa perlu create event page/RSVP kat FB,aku berjaya ajak kawan real aku untuk turun Perlis dan....pergi joli!

Aku sumpah tak zealous gathering korang,sebab aku ada mereka mereka yang lebih double tripple better. Tak rigid, tak plastic, dan tak lari waktu susah.

Ouch?

Gua Kelam,Perlis.

• Good points- abang jaga parking fooled,views lawa bhai!,stream-breath-taking
• Minus points- Gua tak buka lagi due banjir,none hot guys.

Taman Ular & Reptilia,Batu Pahat,Perlis.

• Good points-Ada abang handsome jual aiskrim,monyets adorkable.
• Minus points- SNAKES.yucksyucks!,fee bapak lah tak reasonable,boring,not updated.

Yahoo! Karaoke,Kangar

Sila tengok what happens bila aku high~

ye,aku tak saint mana lah!

• Good points- First time aku karok!yeeha,u guys rock!,Chal belanja <3
• Minus points-Lagu tak banyak,abang gatal.

Korang,don't take it personally,jyeahhh?

Anyhoos,this is how it's done ;)

Boleh maki hamun di ruang komen.Gossip belakang,cap ayam lah weh.

Sebab terlampau happy,gelak tak berhenti all the way dalam kereta,

tengok muka aku bercahaya!HAHA

Sayang,karma jangan buat main ayy!

Okay,now now,macam mana nak start ay? Ay,today aku terjangkit ascent pirates sikit. But nevermind, sebab Johnny Depp is one hot hook-less pirate ever!

*gulp*

ahh!Kapten Jack berhenti distracting me lahh!

1...

2...

...

ahhh!susah macam ni!tarik nafas, Fynn!!!

Okayy,now dah a bit stable sebentar.HAHA

berbalik kepada KARMA. Ouh, ya! Dalam ucapan alu-aluan aku ada mention benda ni kan?Anyone yang tak pernah tahu karma tu apa???

Karma tu,senang cakap; 

bila kita buat something bad pada orang one day, orang lain pulak yang akan buat lebih kurang pada kita.

Macam mana? takut tak?takut tak?Ada sesiapa nak minta maaf awal pada aku kah? HAHA.joking! kenapa muka cuak bhai??? Some people tak percaya akan karma, mungkin sebab tu lah diorang berani dengan selamba yayai buar dajal kat orang kan? To those yang percaya pulak, diorang akan sabar buat cool je bila kena bahan dengan orang lain sebab diorang tahu, one day, your on top but the next day you're at the bottom. Masa tu dengan bangga gila aku akan cakap, 

Padan la muka kau, bukan aku tak warning dulu kan? Kau yang mengada sangat nak kejar jantan-separa tu sampai sanggup disrespect aku yakni ex-senior kau, kaum sejantina kau and menyumbang ke arah "CHEAT" among men!

Sumpah, i'd rather lie tapi kegembiraan aku tak dapat diselindung lagi.HAHA. this is what happen bila Fynn jadi evil. Aku rasa puas bila kau kena rasa apa yang aku perlu rasa dulu. Like i said, KARMA babeh.

mari meng-cool kan diri sebentar! 

Oh My Wolverine! 

Dulu, alahai... punyalah defend balak kau kan? Sanggup gila subahat, sanggup couple even kau tahu mamat-separa tu bf(aku muntah hijau bila ingat balik) aku kan? Aku respect la sebab kau still percaya cinta sejati walaupun it was so centuries ago, tapi mamat yang kau sayang sangat tu,PLAYBOY,sayang :)

Nah,now dah terbukti kan?

Wahai mahlok-mahlok yang baca post ni,PLEASE! don't make any stupid assumption and make yourself look even more worse dan dengan gegeh nak merepot bergossip sana sini,okay? salah orang kang,malu... Cukup-cukup la jaja kisah orang, main tikam belakang ayy,kawan? Sorang dah kena penangan karma, em let's see...prime suspect belum, konco-konco, soon...!

OH MY GOD!

isn't life is sweet?

Otak saya pusing,sila simpati.

These passing days i had a total out of da world punya blast!

thanks muchos to friends yang sanggup datang jauh konon alasan nak ambil sijil SPM kat sekolah and end up buat kerja lagho and memalukan diri at most of the public places macam kedai makan, Perlis's silly mall, bowling center and even dalam bilik guru. Even dapat dengar tazkirah free dari ustazah, jumpa Pak Ya terchenta, dan terpaksa kejar cikgu yang lari from kitorang sebab Chalida Bunthan free hair, it was worth it sebab aku dapat jumpa Cikgu Ku kesayangan aku which is my forever heartthrob , Cikgu Saiful yang semakin hansome,kacak bergaya,dengan loghat kelantan dan semakin slim (oh boy!oh boy!) dan Cikgu Amir yang panggil kita artissss!

Awwwwww @_@

You know, i think the rumor about me being partially insane and hallucination is coming true.

Seriously, it's either aku kena black magic or it's the over-functioning adrenaline.    

Why?Kenapa?

1. Just everytime i drive aku rasa macam i've hit someone and drag his/her body dengan my car.
2. I think,nahhh.I knew ada orang is spying on me.Well,i'm not quite sure if it is even a human being~
3. I've been having weird dreams lately! and now, i CANNOT remember it.shessshh
4. Why is it the fact that Adam Lambert is gay bothering me too much???!
5. Ada banyak perasaan bercampur baur at once?
6. Some said i've gained 1000pounds!
7. Some said i'm turning skinny!
8. I feels like going to Israel and self-bombing. Fynnn!!!
9. I'm having weirdos and freaks in form of stray cats hanging out my lawn at midnight!
10. I have to write this post.  

Hadirin hadirat sekalian, sila judge sendiri,ye?

Please inform saya if any of those symptoms are worrying.

Anyone yang ada explaination,please do so A.S.A.P. with more S.S.S!

Woohoo...Imam Muda!opsss!

Salam peeps ;)

eceh,Fynn!

HAHA...okay,okay,fine! Sekarang mengaku girls mana yang tak excited tengok show ni???

Ha?huh? 

*Giggles*

Dah memang lumrah since high school lagi, budak perempuan semua akan cair bila ada boys yang agak alim kan? betul tak? betul tak? Ahaa...i know lah! Mesti tadi time pukul 9 sampai 10 korang tak kelip-kelip mata depan TV,kan!haha...Ada tu,masing-masing mata terbeliak melilau cari mangsa!

Join page Imam Muda di Facebook!

Nah,aku kasi chance korang buat pilihan jap :

Teringat pulak time Ramdhan kat sekolah dulu...Terawih, siapa tak tahu? Awal bulan bapak la melambak manusia pergi, makin lama,makin ciput lah yang tinggal. And, bila dah nak Raya tu, baru nak ramai balik. Tapi, girls sekolah aku lain sikit... Bukan semua lah, Fynn amacam?

Tettt!

Sebab apa taw? Kaum wanita sekolah aku ni sangat lah RAJIN pergi sembahyang terawih. Lepas bukak puasa terus pecut pergi masjid,babe! Maghrib sana lagi tuh! Moreh jangan dilupa...HAHA

Korang rasa kenapa?Ha?Fikir...

Sebab...memang dah macam tradisi kat masjid tu, every terawih kan, some students from this sekolah agama (MARDI,kot?) akan datang and jadi imam! HAHA...habis lah,rahsia dah terbongkar ~

Masalahnya, bukan tak nak buat ibadah dengan ikhlas...

Tapi, sumpa imam-imam muda tu kacak segala,bhaiii!

aigoo...

(ni bukan promo but ni je yang aku jumpa so far!HAHA...boleh tahan ;D)

Okay,berbalik kepada realiti TV Imam Muda ni, 

Sesungguhnya, objektif show ni sangatlah murni dan terbaekkk...

So,harap-harap janganlah Imam Muda bertukar jadi Calon Suami Muda pulak,ye...

Iman jangan terpesong bhai...

And,of course tak salah kalau you girls nak usha-usha mana satu boleh buat laki or dah set standard "Laki aku nanti aku nak sebijik macam geng Imam Muda!" ,

tapi, kalau difikirkan, sesuaikah or layak kah kita ni dengan diorang semua?

Adjust sana sini dulu kasi sama level, then silakan berdoa banyak kat tuhan...

Al maklumlah;

Wanita yang baik adalah untuk lelaki yang baik and vice versa :)

perghhh...Fynn berkhutbah kah???

My price to pay?

Not long ago, i got this pop-up chat from FB.

it's someone i know from SeriIndra(my elementary school).

my primary school was a dreadful nightmare. go ask my batch,you'll see why.

God,i hate to bring up this phase of my life.

It was awful.

WRETCHED.

then there he went and said;

Macam kenal,sape tah?

Lol.it's funny to be asked something like this.

You see,i never had problem remembering people faces,names...

So,if you ever jump into me like AGAIN and i don't seem to recognize you,

it means i don't wanna see you anymore :)

So then i answered,

u know me,from your SeriIndra?

then of course, maybe i got him to remember,

so there's no more words afterward.

Not that i'm making any hasty speculation but common'

who couldn't tell the meaning of that expression?

nevermind, i kinda used to that.

Well,that's one thing.

Here comes another.

I'm beginning to think that there's something wrong with me.

I worked my ass off to please almost everyone,making them satiesfied.

But at the end of the day,

everything i've done is just worthless.

why is it i'm feeling that friends are being apart from me?

why is that i'm feeling like i'm not good enough to be anybody's friend?

why is that i feels like people's hating me?

why does everything doesn't seems right?

why must i feel this way?

susah sebenarnya,
being me.
am i not normal?

Aku tak perlu kawan macam kau.

Ape kes Fynn?

Hush..Shut!shut!

jangan bisinglah!this time biar aku tulis anything that i feel to.

dah lama rasanya since blog ni jadi open diary aku.

asyik blog skema dan plastic. aku rasa macam tahi.

sebab?

sebab banyak blogger bising kalau tulis blog bercirikan open diary ni.

kutuk lah,ape lah..konon aku bayar diorang masa first buat blog dulu.

then, kes panjang.pffttt..

what the heck?

blog orang pon korang nak sibuk?

siap bagi advice macam pro,sinis sial~

banyak sangat kot buku yang korang pernah tulis pasal blogging ni?

HAHA

biarlah.tak matang macam mana sekali pun,

even korang baca posts aku dan tak komen lansung pun,

terima kaseh setinggi KLCC sebab tolong up kan traffic!
 

sebenarnye,aku nak blog pasal lain tadi,korang ah nih!
*bongek Fynn!marah-marah tak tentu pasal*

 
sorry guys.
geram taw,geram!grrr


kenapa aku marah ?
pasal KAWAN lah!

frankly, aku rasa macam terhegeh-hegeh nak jaga hati perut kaw semua. gilaaa! kononnya sebab it has been more than 5 years i should tolerate whatever shit u guys put on me???

like SERIOUSLY?

bangang.
to some of you,thanks a lot sebab always be there for me and for not making me feel like as if i was the only one who's trying to make it work.

bukan buat aku rasa gila low standard from u guys,
cari aku bila perlukan,
dah tu bising pasal life aku!
belagak and acting snob out of nothing.
bodoh la sial.

lagi sorang minah ni,let's call her Pandi.

i don't know what's with her.
but out of a sudden, she start deleting me from everywhere.
senang cakap,from her life lah.
and, why on earth i once thought i've done wrong and i should seek for apology?
guess what?
thanks for the silent treatment.
and hell until now i don't know if i ever done anything wrong.
has i ever?
pfffttt...

to that Pandi:

well,we all know why Pandi,kan?

seriously? why do u think u are that important?

i don't know what is my mistake and indeed i believe i never did any to u.

well, u see...

we are not that close. we talk very rare.

and suddenly u act as if u got something against me like a total retard.

u must be proud,huh?

ouh, and if and only if lah this had gotta do with this girl from high school,

who stole your boyfie....

WTF is that got to do with me?

STOP being ridiculous and childish.

phewww...lega,ok?
sekali sekala lepas tension macam ni,best jugak.

sekian terima kaseh.

DEATH bothers me!

Al-Fatihah kepada keluarga arwah Pak cik Kadir...

newspaper article on tis

Ya,Allah...

aku still ingat lagi masa sekolah dulu...arwah Pak Kadir la yang selalu marah kalau aku bising-bising main lari-lari tak tentu arah kat Lab Physic...

ada sekali tuh,dia marah orang tak panggil salam kalau lalu sebelah orang tua.

siap kasik lecture lagi!ouh,those moments...

sobs...korang!

ingat lagi tak,masa kita melawak dengan arwah bila kita nak carik Cikgu Luzman dulu?

haha.minum kopi kantin...donat pak Kassim!

gila sedih weh!even maybe aku takde blood relation pon,there then at SYTRA,everyone of are close like family.so,if things like this happen,it will affects us all~

and,

of course,it reminds me of DEATH.

recently,aku dah macam lalai dah...too much of the duniawi...

tengok semua orang berubah,i tried too.konon nak fit in lah~

dan,macam biasa,orang-orang yang aku pernah respect dulu...

one word,

HANCUSSSS.

they are not much different than others.

entahlah.

to be the only one who believe and try to persuade millions others is IMPOSSIBLE.

as much as i would like to live on my own life,

just don't give a damn about those peeps, my belief told me not to.

if u know what i mean~

so,tell me,what best to do?

most dah berubah...

kata-kata yang kononnya prinsip dulu dah hilang with the wind~

maybe diorang macam aku jugak,

nak fit in.HAHA~

i've told one of my friends about this,and she said,

biarlah Fynn,itu orang lain.

kalau ko yakin aper yang kaw percaya sebelom nih,is true,

then go on. Rasulullah sendiri tak dapat lari dari dugaan.

so,what made u think u gonna go thru all these tat easy?

satu titik hitam pada bulu biri-biri!be tat,girl!

dunia memang melalaikan,

tp,kan tuhan dah cakap?

it's TEMPORARY.

gila berbekas kat hati aku...nyawa kita nih,bila-bila masa je tuhan boleh ambek...sedarlah,FYNN!!!i need my late roomies!i need those motivations...

P.S. semoga roh arwah dan keluarga dicucuri rahmat.aminnn...

aku bukan ANGELIC yg pathetic

Hey...i mean it,hey!this is the countless time where i'm starring at this blank box where i should type some boring essays for u guys.gosh,i lose my words AGAIN.hate it when this happens.bullshit.i've been here for dayssss!!!ouh,excuse my words,alaaa...whats wrong with taik lembu,kan?hoho.in case you are wondering,i've done experimenting and,i think being nice is not that nice anyway~oke,oke...leave it.

tajok mcm besh kan?haha.admit it! ;D truth is,tajok tuh lansong takde kaitan dgn entry kali nih.haha...so aku nk blog psl aper this time?I DON'T KNOW!!!

*absurd*

fine lah!disebabkan i'm missing my besties muchos and tak dapat pegi small gathering yang my besties lansong takde tuh plus lack of ideas...shall i introduce you.....*drum roll*

my top bFF! :)

mesti dorg bangge t...

#1 NoorSuhaila Bt Hat aka Sue

Well,cmne aku bleyh terbaek dgn daknih pon,aku x brape nk igt lah~ *sorry* what i know, Sue

and me dlu,satu kelas mase form 1.heee...Kelas 1Jati. i think,the moment we really get close to

each other pon, since aku start migrate dorm when i was in form 3.hihik...aku slalu lepak dorm dye,and maybe sbb tuh we're getting close.days by days,aku start sense yang we both share lots in common like; we both HATE BOYS. bold that.and,disebabkan dye nih manje,aku dah anggap dye mcm adek senirik da pon...haha.it feels good to be around her sbb i feel very protective of her.and,she have been a great shoulder for me too.thanks darl :)

#2 Rehan aka Tuesday

kenape Tuesday?biarlah hanya isnin sampai ahad je yang tahu.lol~she's a petite little girl tapi pandai.mulot tuh,kalau nagging...tuhan je yg taw..and,me as along of the so-called family nih

yg slalu kena...name gelaran : Google SMSTSP. so,nak info ape-ape psl hal skolah dulu ktorg carik dye jeh..haha..dye nih freshie...and sgt dibenci oleh aku dolu-d

olu..haha!idk,tapi aku rase satu kepale jeh ngan dwarf aku sorg neh...plg besh kalau gossip!anddd,strong supporter too!dan,sgt sentimental. ;P

#3 NurAfizatul Azni Mihad aka Blusher

tingat jeh budak neh,one word = JIWANG. FYI,dye ader collection novels cintun penoh satu almari besauu..hihi..kotg rpt,sbb i lend my phone dulu kt dyer so that dye boleyh keep in touch dgn scandals dye sumer..since then,ktorg cm rpt...lepas tuh pulak,tym form 4&5 dye ikot aku migrate sekali dkt motel c2-UR tuh...dah tido sekali en,takkan xrpt...*winks* aku suker dye sbb aku boleh usik dye sesuka hatiii!weeeee....farid bitter,sila jgn mrh :) aku sygg dye most probably dye sgt memahami cus we've been thru byk same situations..kan

?and,dear...im still waiting for 'the novel of my life' written by u tuh,oke?

#4 Nuura Najiha Mohamad aka my private consellor

Jiha!aku sorg jeh yg pggl Jiha.org panggl Nuura.ngan pakwe unx,ryte?aku kire pakwe spare,oke?!dyer adlh kwn plg memahami aku.hihik...thanks ouh!budak nih mcm magnet,no matter jow much i try to repel,msh ader sides ktorg akn attract blk...she's such a good advisor.idk,but whenever i need advise like ASAP,i'll go find her.and,dye jeh yg know how to pursue me,make me think twice or in simple,she know what best for me ^^

#5 Nur Syazwani Ghazali aka Bun

Budak paling nakal pernah aku jumpe.hihik.aku suker daknih sbb dye sgt lembut dan sedap dipeluk,dicubit dan digigit!haha~padan mukaaa!suka buli aku sgt!ini teman aku tym buat jahat.tym gossip dan tym makan buadak aka junior!hahaha...sgt heppy kwn dgn Buntal(pingu ajar aku!) sbb junior sumer takot dgn dye!plus,dye slalu jadi aim seniors...and,suarenya yang

nyaringgg dan sifat romantis beliau.haha~Sebab unx,satu batch pggl aku 'tajam' but,aku suka org pggl 'miaww'!aku paling suka bila kami dapat buat bising time Amirah n etc tgh blaja dlm klas ^_~

# 6 Nur Azzah Che Ali aka Wednesday

aku lupa lah dorg panggil unx pe ;D aku suka Azzah yg selambe yayai...aku takot nak pandang Azzah yang baru bgn titow.tapi aku suka Azzah yg pandai melindungi aku..hihik...unx pon teman tocher aku jugak!!!wahaha...same-same lah kiter jd senior yg digeruni...azzah nih jenis ganas sket,n i like it!dye sgt tough,bagi aku...Azzah,igt g tym emo maser form 4 dulu?hehek....tym tu laa kot kter cm rpt sket..melalui mslh yang hampir samer...walaupun agk ganas,Azzh actually emotional jugak,oke?heee n_n

# 7 Noor Izzah aka Pingu

ini sweetheart batch aku...haha.budak nih,nampak je senyap...skali ckp...perghhh...sgt pedasss ouh!Sabah mari...aku kenal dye tym form2.haha...satu kelas tym dye baru pindah masok dulu....one more thing,dye nih,genius FREAK.seriously!asyek bacer komik Arena je kije hari-hari...tak penah study kot.result gempaq jehh...Pingu adalah karyawan yang paling kreative but yet humble kat SYTRA dlu.kan?suker menyakiti org dlm bentuk fizikal whether dgn kuku dyer or cakaran dye...aku pernah kena kot!kalau merajok,sgt susah maw dipujok...and,don't mess with her belongings especially super DIARY!makanan= priority! sgt manje,mcm budak-budak.drama queen mcm aku jugak.lakonan terbaek,tym tipu Mdm Anis dulu!haha...aku syg kaw bahhh ;D

sekian sajer....see?my high school was fun,isn't it?better than now.*sigh*

p/s:to my friends yg aku tak mention dlm nih,jgn kecik ati,oke?maybe sbb korg tak rpt sgt ngan aku or maybe ader sekuel kepade entri nih...afterall,we're good friends,aren't we? :)