IPGM..its HEAVY!

Im torn between two...damn!!!oh my godness...today,26 June 2009,i found out that result of institut perguruan malaysia is out!!!Syu is the one who told me about this.They have checked it through sms.Two of my classmate made it.its Don and Syu.Obviously,they are excited about the offer.i can see from their face how happy they were.Me?I did try to check it.but,twice failed application make me stop trying.Everyone is like wanting to know whether or not i got it too.Yeah,hard to admit but maybe they secretly wishes for me to go?lol...its inner voice,ok.somehow...at my room,i checked it once again,and there you go....

"RM0.20 MOE: TAHNIAH!ANDA BERJAYA.91011909****.Kursus:S012R0E0MP di IPGM KAMPUS PEND TEKNIK.Info lanjut layari http://www.moe.gov.my/"

Sh*t!its the first word to come out of my mouth.I did ask for God not to grant me the application.If im damn not interested why am i attending the interview?im blocking other oppurtunities,what?!huhhh...its my mum.She's the one who force me to go for it.As to satiesfied her,and for the sake of obeying...i agree..i only did the preparation last minute!i did the research on the night of the interview,i submitted an INCOMPLETE forms,i didn't gave my picture accordingly,i even submit certificates w/o my name on it!plus,i also failed to answer Q about cabinet in personal interview!what the heck were they thinking??!iam not a qualified TEACHER to be!!!

i know,by the time im publishing all these to the public,lots will say that im not grateful as i should be...I should have aware of the fact that thousand had applied but only few had succeed..how am i going to say that I COMPLETELY understand of the situation!its just,try being in my shoe,then only you'll shut up.its a matter of passion and future..which should i choose???my passion,eager,interest and the rest of it lies here,in law...but,a total promises future awaits in IPGM...i have of the interest on being a teacher...yet,im still considering the risk of studying law...there is not a single promise of end up being a lawyer.also,there is no guaranty of not commiting sins...plus,the unscholarship study in degree...everything compared to ipgm's offer is too much to handle.as in ipgm i will get allowance every single months!job is also secured...

these are among advices yg i dpt...

WHAT WILL BE MY CHOICE???!

hurmmm...still hoping for clues.im going to perform the istikharah tonight.hopefully it will work.i sygg sgt nak tinggal my friends here.they are all sweet and caring..i started to love them but now it seems like i have to go.my roommates...classmates...i LOVE u guys!!!i don't want to leave...but..maybe its still early to decide.yah.hopefully.am i asking too much for hoping the same incident as USM interfere to happen again this time? T_T

"Ya Allah, saya memohonkan pilihan menurut pengetahuanMu dan memohonkan penetapan dengan kesuasaanMu juga saya memohonkan kurniaMu yang besar, sebab sesungguhnya Engkaulah yang Maha Mengetahui dan saya tidak mengetahui apa-apa. Engkau Maha Mengetahui segala yang ghaib. Ya Allah, jikalau di dalam ilmuMu bahawa urusan saya ini........baik untukku dalam agamaku, kehidupanku serta akibat urusanku, maka takdirkanlah untukku dan mudahkanlah serta berikanlah berkah kepadaku di dalamnya. Sebaliknya jikala di dalam ilmumu bahawa urusan ini buruk untukku, dalam agamaku, kehidupan serta akibat urusanku, maka jauhkanlah hal itu daripadaku dan jauhkanlah aku daripadanya serta takdirkanlah untukku yang baik-baik saja dimana saja adanya, kemudian puaskanlah hatiku dengan takdirMu itu."

p/s:help me to decide...